It's been a super long time since I've blogged. Duh. So, anw, I just had tuition with Davis and I had really late lunch with adik, making up stupid stupid snide comments. *ahahah* The ones that my little cousin made to adik. It's really mean so I wont type it out.

Anyway, I blog only when something is not so...right. So, get ready for he SPLAT of messy shit.
Firstly, innova is killing me from the inside. Block Test is just a pain in my ass. I haven't even finished revising for Maths paper tmr and I'm sooooo not ready for Chemistry paper on Tuesday. Davis made me do a chemistry paper which he prepared for me. *Gosh, I'm so thankful I have him!* Apparently he enjoys watching me suffer doing chemistry. Haiz. So, now I'm gonna concentrate on maths for tmr. Duno what I'm gonna ask for Chem consultation tmr. SHAITE!

Secondly, I love my family. For being so supportive of me.

Thirdly, all the best for NAPFA, baby.

Fourth, I hope I do well for A-levels no matter what. I hope my effort pays off.

Fifth, I love my Minahs. Happy belated bdae Nazurah. I'm sorry I couldn't be there. You look pretty in the photos Bdae Girl. :)

Sixth, I'm too tired. I know I'm a difficult person to understand, a difficult person to please. But why can't you be more forgiving and understanding? Why can't you give in? I know I may be unreasonable at times and Im rigid. But why can't you see life through my eyes? Why can't you understand how I'm feeling and the stress that I'm facing? Why can't you understand the difficult times that I'm struggling through, the effort that I'm putting in to make sure that my life doesn't become shit? If fairness is what you seek, it's what I want too. But sometimes, our lives are different. You can't deny that. Sometimes I wish that you'd see things the way I do and not take everything like there's a second chance to it. Sometimes I wish that you'd put in more effort and thought to your actions. Sometimes I wish you'd love me and understand me more.

I remember years ago, someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love, I did. You were strong and I was not. I was careless, I forgot, I did. Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken. All my scars are open. Tell them what I hoped would be, impossible. Falling out of love is hard. Thinking all you need is there, building faith on love and words.. When all is gone, there's nothing to say...